Soul Transplant

Good news or bad news first?

Bad news. Tony was reading my LJ and he sort of found out that i lied to him about the whole Tony/Tom dilemma...something i had forgotten about because things were gonig so perfect, and i was happy.

Good news: Apparently he forgave me as soon as he read about it...although obviously he had to talk to me about it and find out why i had lied to him. Everything's fine between us though, still as perfect as ever. I love him, he loves me.

Think this is true?

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Moderate
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Low
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante Inferno Hell Test

Ok, so it's a month exactly untill i turn 16. Okay:Okay.
Birthday Wishlist:
1) Money towards a laptop
2) Money towards the trip to spain
3) an MP3 player
4) Money towards...well, just money really.
Meh.

It's Joes birthday today. I made him a lil card during maths, and he's havving this massive party on Saturday but i don't think i'll be going.

Hannah's Birthday on 18th May. Absolutely noo idea what i'll get her, Most likely..umm...eghh. A Scowrer would be useful...or some dissinfectant. She could use that at her place. I dunno. I'll think of something for her.

2nd June is Charly's Birthday, and i'm gonna choose one or two of the many books on her wishlist to buy from Amazon. Probably do that tonight, if i can convince daddy to order it for me. Then i'll set up a direct debit into his account. Probably do that anyway, just for the hell of it.

10th June is Thomas' birthday. Not entirely sure what i'll get him...deffinately transfer some money into his account and then probably take him shopping to get a new toy or book..or something. Should be a nice lil outing if Hannah agrees.

11th is mine...already been through that. Planning a meal out with family, and friends over to watch a movie or something, nothing fancy.

July 19th is Libby's Birthday, thinking of an arty-crafty type thing for her. Possibly some Dali or something.

July 22nd is Dads, I'm thinking of a hiking kit or some kendall mint cake, to see him through when he goes away for his sabatical. Also the day i go to spain with Hannah, Mark, Thomas and Jenny.

July 29th is Tony's birthday, i'll find something for him in spain but i also want to get him some balloons. Great news when it comes to Tony. Although he may be moving away soon, (free holidays in Selsey) I said i love him, and he replied with the same! I'm ecstatic!

Soo yeah..currently i'm in child development. There's this fat arse supply teacher all in my face, so i hope she reads this. She keeps threatening to turn the computer off, but i seriously couldn't care since LJ introduced the autosave function.

Plans for later:
Tidy room
Tonys coming round at 4.15,
Joe and Sophie might pop round later,
Cook dinner.

Run out of random ramblings...gotta love ya and leave ya folks!
Jess x x x x x

Ok, so i'm at school as usual. It's fourth period, nearly the end of the day, as it usually would be. I'm writing my livejournal instead of doing any work, as usual. It's approx.25 degrees! WHAT is WITH that Mr.Weatherman?! Or Mother Theresa, whichever you prefer. I'm loosing out on sleep because of friggin bad dreams, im tryin' ter concentrate at school because of exams, yet SOMEONE is shining a lightbulb on the top of my head perminately. What's the deal with that dude? Who has it in for me? On top of that i've been hormonal for the last week, snapping at everyone, ignoring my parents and generally screwing everything up. I'm fine Ma'm, how the fuck are you coz i don't give a shit!

So...deep breath..things are going awsome with Tony, we've seen each other almost every day for about a month now, i think i'm getting a wee bit atached. EPIC!EPIC::: I have a new cold sore making itself at home!!! Anyway, back to Tony and I--he's making me do like loads of work and i have to get of the PC.

Luv ya all lots xxxx

Yup, School seems to be the easiest time to update my LJ...i wonder why! *coughcoughsplutterchoke

Love Life update is waaay overdue, so here goes!
Yuh know the whole thing with me and tom going out, but me going on a date with Tony? Situation comPLETEly changed. Let me explain. I started spending waaay more time with Tony after that date, particularly because Tom was in India with his dad. Re-Wind to the date with Tom: We went bowling, had fun, all was fine and dandy. Only problem is that we were hanging out more as just friends, and i didnt feel like a relationship would really work with him SOOO on the Wednesday after he got back from India, i broke up with him. I guess it was also because me and Tony have become shockingly close within two weeks, we started seeing eachother, and now we're together. It's like...woah man!
Love life update complete!

So yeah, right at this moment i'm in a child development class, in a right hissy fit because the stupid teacher says we can keep these revison guide books which are actually pretty decent, BUT we're not allowed to take them home until we leave school. HOW FLIPPING POINTLESS IS THAT?!?! I mean, come ON! I'm just starting to get more motivated to do more revision and stuff at home, this is NOT the kinda encouraging support i was expecting! I don't HAVE any material to revise from for child development at home because we're not allowed to take our folders home either, so really i can't see what her fooking idea is! HOW THE HELL ARE WE SUPPOSED TO REVISE!!! ARGHHH! Yeah, i'm not a happy bunny at the moment!

Moving swiftly on...My plan for the rest of today:
+ Catch bus into Camberley Town Centre
+ Skipedeedo to the bank coz i got paid on Tuesday WhOoOoOo!
+ Withdraw £30
+ Pay for mum's altenburg, and give parents the change out of £20
+ Buy a new fountain pen
+ Go home
+ Get changed
+ Tidy the messy corner of my room, at the end of my bed
+ Go to information evening at Farnborough Sixthform
+ Do some history revison
+ Call Tony, possibly invite round

Five minutes left of the lesson, so here's the formal goodbye:
Gotta go, luv ya all lots
x-X-x-Jessie-x-X-x
x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x

So yeah..it's that time of year where everything goes by in a blur...i've only just started realising what a noggin i am for completely freezing i my spanish oral exam yesturday...i was stuttering for about two minutes, i'm screwed with spanish.
ICT to do list:
Complete unit Five Pre-prepared Coursework
Complete Website Design work
Complete a spreadsheet
Complete a graphics project (my weakest point everr!)

Yeah, apart from ICT and the odd bits of Science here and there i'm through with coursework. I just need to do making yoghurt and then this other one thats like two years old and i never did it. Ohwell. Have already started Revision, since i break up on the 19th of May for exams.

Ok this is long overdue, but i've been busy. I still really can't be bothered, but heck, got nout else to do. Major problems have occured since last update, and the Love Life area seriously needs updating, so i reckon i'll start with that.

As you all know, Tony asked me out on a date for last saturday, which kinda went pear-shaped because my sister had planned a girly night in to watch the new Harry Potter film. It resulted in Tony coming back to my place for dinner, which was really awkward. Just to get things straight, i've had it from Tony's mouth that he only wants to get to know me, no other intentions what-so-ever. That's what Richards told me aswell.

Now things get complicated. Tom asked me out (as in girlfriend) last thursday, pretty much straight after i'd written that looong entry, where i wasn't entirely sure that he liked me or not. But he does, and now i'm going out with him, and we're going bowling on Sunday. The other problem is that i've double-booked myself for sunday; because i'm supposed to be going out for a lunch date with Tony to make up for the mess of last saturday. So not only am i going on a date when i have a boyfriend, but i'm supposedly going to be in Bracknell and Camberley at the same time, with two guys who are completely crazy about me. Oh Shit, what the hell am i supposed to do?

I talked to Richard about it, and being the asshole-y type guy that he is, he messed me around for absolutely aaages and then finally gave me some good advice, telling me i should get to know tom and tony much better before i make a decision as to who i'm gonna ditch, and who i'm gonna stick with. Either way, i want the other one as a friend.

So yeah, my life is pretty stressed at the moment, but i'll live. One good thing i can focus on is that Tom and i kissed properly with tongues and all for the first time today, and it was quite special because, although rushed, it was his first ever propper kiss, and he said he'd been waiting for it to be with me for over a year, because that's how much he's liked me. I know he's a good'n because when i told him all about the whole Leon situation, and me loosing my virginity, Tom was actually really understanding and said that he didn't have a problem with it. Sooo yeah...new status:: Taken!

Oooh, and you all have to see this absolutely booootiful portrait of me that my wonderful Libby-baby did for me, as well as all the doodles i've got all my friends to do in my notebook, but first, a lil doodle i did myself!



Next, there's the portrait by libby, which i love!



Followed by Libby's doodle which started off the craze of getting my much loved Mickey Mouse Diary filled of doodles!



Sophie's doodle is next! Luv it! :D



And last but not least, Richard's doodle, which is awsome! (My big bro rawks, luv him!)



And i reaaally hope this works, coz last time it didnt.

Ooohkay. Where to start. Right now i'm at the back of the Business Studies classroom, while everyone else is filling in this revision sheet for st00pid people which i completed within five minutes of being given it. The supply teacher is STILL trying to explain the work, when its soo simple i could most likely do it with my eyes closed.

So, big update aplit into mini sextions is probs best. Start with where i left off. 2005 was a waay bad year for me, and it got worse when i stopped updating this. There was the whole thing with steph and charly, then there was Lee -- who by the way, was a girl in London just pretending to be two boys over the net. How completely twisted and diagusting. Then, there was Scotty. I broke up with him soon after Alten Towers because he lived too far away, but everyone thought it was because of a new guy called Leon.

Leon. haha. NOW, it gets interesting. We started hanging out in July 2005, and i had a huge crush on him. Unfortunately, he had this bitch of a girlfriend called Cheryl. I didn't actually do anything to her, apart from hanging out with Leon occassionally, but she HATED me for it and wanted me dead. Too bad for her. So..End of August/beginning of September, going into yr 11. Also went to Spain for an exchange, but i won't bore you with that just yet, unless you really want to know. 7th Of September i'm babysitting my nephew, Thomas, and Leon's there with me. He asks me out, i'm all happy chappy for a few months.We start doing more...adult stuff, to be polite. December, i go on the pill, completely loose it and then by January Friday 13th he's dumped me saying he 'Can't handle the relationship' basically meaning he's GAY or theres another girl. Good for him.

Right, so now we're back in the end of March, and it is hectic. I have exams coming up in May, and i've had sooo many bits of coursework and stuff. Here's a list of GCSEs i have a chance of getting C or above in, according to teachers.
English
Maths
Business Studies
Child Development
Spanish
ICT (Merit GNVQ predicted)

On top of these, i do about five other subjects. It aint looking good people. Not at all. But what can ya do. I've finally been accepted to Farnborough Sixthform, and my hopefull subjects will be:
Music Technology
Sociology
Business Studies (international)
Either Critical Thinking or English Lit/Lang combined.

I'm still working at the bakery, been there for just over a year now, go me. Steph's moved back down here and started work at the bakery two weeks ago. She does 1-5 on a saturday and gets £3.75 an hour, i do 11-5 on a saturday and i'm STILL on £3.50 an hour. Tell me that SUCKS! Anyway, i have five piercings now, and i'm planning another three in easter, plus my first trip to Camden.

Love Life
Soo....Guys I like:
1)Dino (in Majestix)
2)Adam (In Stationary Box/ on the door at CFC)
3)Tyler (In year nine, awsome mate)
4)Tony (Met him on Monday, he's a genuine nice guy)
5)Wayne (In year nine, but also at church)
6) Tom M (In year ten, cool to hang out with

Guys i have a chance with:
1) Tony (date on Saturday, deffinate update, i promise!)
2) Nathan, but i don't really have feelings for him...he just doesn't get the idea!
3) Tom M (It's pretty obvious he likes me, and i think he was trying to ask me out earlier but his friends kept interfering, bless him.)
4) Jake. Not a relationship guy, but he hit on me last friday when we were in the skatepark. Kinda the rebound guy ya go back to, type thing. No strings attached.

Soo...yeah, that's that. I'm running outta things to say...err...New friends! I've met soo many new friends in the last year! There's Joe, Jake, Fat Man, Big Matt, Hooper, Nadia, Izzy, LIBBY!, Nathan, ***SPIKE***, Jessie,and a whole loada other people i can't remember the name of. OOH, and Tyler, Leon, Tom, Tom, Tony and TOBY. And more. Rhiannon, Rhia...There IS more...MORGAN! AND MORE..

I have a NEW WEBSITE people, go see!
http://dhost.info/activeradio/jess - personal, has all my poetry on it. (Still being developed.)
http://dhost.info/activeradio/jess/useit - ICT coursework
http://dhost.info/activeradio/jess/climatechange - competition entry

So thats it for now, be back soon i PROMISE!! Love ya!!
LAURA LOST HER PRETTY GREEN BUTTERFLY BLINGBLING NECKLACE! :(:(:(
Love ya babies!
x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

Wooow...it's like nearly a year man! I'll do a propper update later when i have time..But i'm back!

My my i haven't stopped by here in aaages...Well anyways, exciting news people..I'm goingto Alton Towers with none other than Scotty :D Oh yeah...my friends hannah and sophie are tagging along..but i'm sure they'll give us some time alone together. Ooooh yeah, and i watched scotty on webcam for the first time last night...very..err...interesting...;)

Ok....Just one..but this one is actually quite acurate, for a cheesy online quiz.



I can assure you all that i AM still a virgin though. I'm a good girl i am...

Oh My god...i dont know what to do or think...Im so confused...And..I'll just let you lot make your mind up about this. See, i have this theory that either Scotty is lying to me, or someone is trying to split us up. There's been alot of tension between scotty and lee lately....so im wondering whether it's got something to do with that. Here's an email i got from scotty yesterday, exactly as is, with no spelling corrections or anything.

"ya know what?
i hav had it completely with ya stupid friend lee always arguin or makin 1 i fuckin hate him n he keeps sayin how u 2 are always tlkin on the phone everyday ya know what i dont rlly give a fuck and oh yeah where have u been the past 3 weeks?
u blocked me or just neva on msn?
cuz i dnt think this is working ya know 19th march we met and oh yes neva seen each other n u sound like ur betta off with lee well thats the message im getting if u wanna tlk fine but thats if u go on msn."

I seriously don't know what to think, because i've been on msn loads, especially in the last 3 weeks, and i've been talking to scotty almost every night!!! What the fuck is he on about?! I thought that maybe he was either lying to me, using lack of communication as a false excuse to dump me, or that somebody logged onto his hotmail account and sent that email without his knowing. Now concidering the following reply which i sent, i sincerely hope it was the latter of my theories. My reply went something like this. I forgot to save it :(..so here goes:

"What the fuck was that all about man?!If you don't like lee then fine, do what any normal person would do and block him! And for fucks sake stop insulting him and his mother!! Even though i'm not with him anymore, he is still a close friend and even if he wasnt, i wouldnt want you treating him like that! And about our..."lack of communication" shall i say, In case you've been attacked with amnesia or something we've been talking on msn almost everyday, trying to figure out ways of meeting up and so on. We've also been writing a story together, and i have records of all our conversations! For fucks sake if you want to dump me then fine, just don't lie to me about it, at least give me the respect that anyone deserves! Meet me on msn at 5.00 tomorrow so we can talk about this properly. Still care for ya, whatever happens xXx"

Now, im taking it that he did get the email, because he was indeed on msn at 5:00. The only problem was that he completely ignored me for 15 minutes, and either blocked me or went offline. So you see im a bit lost as to what i should do now..I'll update as the situation progresses..for the better or worse..

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...............Sorry about this guys, i'm currently looking after my nephew and needed something to enetertain him with. He's only just coming up to 2 years bless him, and seemed captivated by the keyboard. I wuv him lots and lots, no matter how many times i say i dont.
xxxx

Meh, i Thought i'd copy my cousin and post some quiz results of a different kind :s. Enjoy.




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What's YOUR Patronus? (Harry Potter)
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
Your Patronus Is A:	Butterfly
Your Patronus Is:	Terrible
You Use It For:	Nothing, you never really have a need for it
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What The Harry Potter Boys Think Of You
Name / Username
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Draco Malfoy...	You Are The Best Looking Girl In Hogwarts
Fred Weasley...	Your Hot
George Weasley...	Your A Really Good Witch
Ron Weasley...	He Would Love To Shag You
Oliver Wood...	Your Hot
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Name / Username
You will die	by being hit by a bus
At age	56
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Age
Your problem is	Multiple Personalities
Will you ever be cured?	(8) - Don't count on it. - (8)
Just how crazy are you? - 79%
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Age
House	GryffindorHufflepuffRavenclawSlytherin
Family Line	MugglebornHalf-BloodPure-Blood
Dated	Lucius Malfoy
You are well known for	Dating someone famous
Percentage of student body you shagged - 27%
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The things Harry and his friends will say at your funeral... (Harry Potter)
Name:
Age:
D.O.B:
Pick one:	bluedogpeopletrainroomidiotlollypoprainman
Pick a number:	1576359582771023
Harry...	said he liked the way your hair smelled
Hermione...	said that you were graceful
Ron...	said that he remembered that one time when you ate a gallon of ice cream and threw up in his lap
Hargrid...	said that you knew your men very well
Malfoy...	said that your head was larger than your brain and that all the empty space must have been great for storage
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Aaaages ago when i was with Lee, i used to talk to him all night onthe phon,e and now my parents just got the bill! I am sooooo in trouble, and my first pay-check from the bank has to go to them because i have to pay them back!! a Whoooole £130! I hate them!!

Couldnt think of a more inventive subject. I'm doing history coursework finally, yay! If anyone could help me with american race relations i would cherish you dearly....XD

Oooh, lucky you, more quiz results. You can tell i've been bored. :s

You are an
assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your
job without mixing any emotions in it. In your
life you have probably been hurt many times and
have gotten some mental scars. This results in
you being distant from people. Though many
think that you are evil, you are not. What you
really are is a person, trying to forget your
pain and past. You are the person who never
seems to care and that is why being an assassin
fits you good. Atleast, that's what people
think. Even if you don't care that much for
your victims, you still have the ability to
care and to generally feel. It is not lost,
just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to
not get to noticed, and dress in black or other
discrete colours. You don't being in the
spotlight and wish people would just leave you
alone. But once you do get close to someone you
have a hard time letting go and get real down
if you loose him/her.

Main weapon: Sniper
Quote: "The walls we build around
us to keep out the sadness also keep out the
joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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Your wise quote is: "Reality bites with a
variety of sizes of teeth"(-Tony Follari)
As a person, you think life is just plain
painful, horrible and everything else you don't
like. Happy people confuse you. Alot. I mean,
why are they so happy anyway? You are depressed
and perhaps utterly alone and live life rather
montone. You feel there is no reason to really
be here and feel helpless.


What wise quote fits you?(pics) UPDATED
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Nihilist Bear


Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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I swear none of these are fixed...


congratulations. you are the "you smell like
butt" bunny. your brutally honest and
always say whats on your mind.


which happy bunny are you?
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Your element is Ice. This element may seem a little
odd, but this is a side-effect from when the
element of Water gets to hurt. Once you were a
content soul, and happy with life. But then
something happened. Not necessarily on one day,
it probably happened gradually over time. You
lost your will to care and became even more
reserved from the world. People had hurt you in
ways you do not want to remember and now you
isolate yourself from them. You have turned
into an outsider and probably dress more in
black than you used to. Your depression is
eating you up and tearing you apart and the
worst part is that no one is willing to help,
or so it seems. In school you are often by
yourself or one single friend and you rarely
seem to be truly happy anymore. Your sad,
distant eyes and constant frown seems glued to
your face and you need a saviour from this
world. You may turn to music for understanding
and sing/scream along in the lyrics to get rid
of some pain. You are not very open about your
problems to your family/friends, and wish that
they would just notice it and make it go away.
Rate and message!


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I've made a decision, my last decision ever. I have decided that from this moment onward, whatever life throws at me, is what i deserve. Theres no point trying to control my life or change my fate, already too many dictators involved. Hey Serrah serrah, whatever will be will be, the future's not mine to see, hey serrah, serrah!

WhOoOo! http://www.freewebs.com/jessisjess/

Yeah..well.....its all my poems.....or as many as i have room for..

:( hes now telling me that if i ever want a proper relationship or real friends that i need to change who i am and get a boob job. perv!